Monday, July 21, 2014

Better point of view

So today i just finished reading a self-help book written by Victor Taslim Setiawan, i have to admit that the book clearly open my point of view and a really inspirational book. I'm also type of person who hungry to get scholarship, and same as Victor i was failed to get the scholarship after completing my junior high school. Disappointed? Yes, but i believe that all effort that i had done is useful for me today, i learn that failed is not the main obstacle, and i learn to see failure as a ladder to success itself, to be one step closer to my goal than other people. I have to admit that i failed most of the time, and sometimes it could change the way we I think,  it does affect my emotional state. i believe, we have to know what we really want in live, what is of value to us in life. I realise that always have positive mind is the key to rise from disappointment.
I felt that this year gonna be a year full of surprises, why?  because this year will determine my future, where will i study after completing my high school, what major should i take, preparation for UAN, etc. I'm also want to try some scholarships and i believe is all about what path that i choose whether to be diligent or lazy student. I have to nail this year, so i can prove to myself and other people that i success, that my hard work finally paid off. As i read Victor's book, he said that every little goal we achieved in life is a stepping-stone to another bigger and better goal and when we put an effort to the dream, it transforms to a goal. i will have a strong determination, a kindness heart, gratitude, and right attitude in order to achieve my goal one by one. I believe that is the main key to success.

I think that it doesn't matter how many splendid clothes you have to show, how many friends you have, or how many days you spent going to mall or spent with good people, it doesn't change anything and you may only feel a little changes in your life. You may said oh yeah today I'm happy and today is well spent but tomorrow the emptiness will come again, with nothing new achievement by doing that so; not productive at all.
You may find it is good to show off to your friends but that's nothing to do with your future; just waste your time around doing nothing. It is good to be happy but balancing your social life and your personal life is important. I have to admit that setting goal is important, because it lead us closer to what we want to achieve, the main direction we follow. I believe achievement is the most important, it is the prove that i'm capable of doing something, that i can manage my time well, and the one and only thing that have impact on your future.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Jujur.

Jujur aja sebenernya ga tau bakal jadi apa nanti... bakal jadi orang kaya biasa aja ato gimana juga ga tau..
Yang jelas sekarang udah kelas 3, jurusan aja masih bingung
Kadang memang bingung sama orang yang sudah sukses tapi bingung sama kesuksesaannya atau ga excited.
jujur 'berusaha' itu merupakan kata yang tepat banget, excited banget rasanya kalo pergi ke suatu negara yang baru. Seneng banget, waktu kaya ga kerasa. Tapi jujur gatau gimana rasanya kalau memang hidup disana sendiri, menempuh ilmu, apakah semuanya masih tetap 'menyenangkan'?
Aku punya banget obsesi akan suatu kesuksesan yang rasanya susah banget digapai, pengen banget bisa buktiin ke orangtua kalo aku itu mampu bisa! tapi hal itu tak kunjung terwujud.
Kadang melihat foto orang yang aku kagumi, yang aku herankan kok bisa sukses seperti itu menambah semangat, tapi yah bukan itu saja. Kalau tidak berusaha percuma.
Akan tetapi kadang aku sudah berusaha pun gagal.. bingung jadinya harus apa lagi
Mungkin hanya aku yang excited banget sekolah keluar dari negeri ini, apakah aku bosen? cape di sini?
orang bilang aku itu idealis.
selalu melihat ini itu mempertimbangkannya dengan matang, mencari pilihan terbaik bagiku
meskipun ga sepenuhnya bisa dibilang 'baik'.
kadang aku melakukan sesuatu yang sia-sia
ga jelas apa tujuannya dan baru aku sadari sekarang. pas diujung (hampir) lulus.
Ingin banget bisa mendapatkan hal yang aku inginkan selama ini, hal yang rasanya susah digapai itu terwujud
seolah-olah aku mempertaruhkan segalanya disini, sesuatu yang bisa mengubah hidupku sepenuhnya
seluruhnya. Kesempatanku ya bisa dibilang ini last chance. 
bukan last chance juga sih tapi ya kalo gamau rugi umur.
Ingin sekali bisa memberitakan berita bahagia ke keluarga, teman
ingin merasakan susahnya hidup di negara orang lain.
ingin mendapat pengalaman baru teman baru pemandangan baru
apakah rumah hectic nya sekolah yang membuat aku bosan disini?
dibilang bosan juga gak.. tapi khawatir aja akan sekolah dimana.. khawatir aja akan masa depan
khawatir salah jurusan..
pesimis bisa dibilang.
Gak tau harus gimana.
Cuma bisa berusaha sampe akhir tapi masih 'gajelas'
susah digapai 'iya'
Terobsesi keluar dari negri ini seperti teman lain saudara yang bisa pergi keluar negri dengan biaya sendiri. rasanya enak rasanya cerah masa depannya
apa lagi kalau bisa menerimanya dengan cuma-cuma, orang tua gak pusing, mereka bisa menata kehidupan, aku menuntut ilmu, dan sukses kelak
Aku hanya bisa berdoa dan berusaha
Tuhan pasti tau yang terbaik lah
Semester depan akan menjadi semester yang penuh perjuangan.
Hanya berharap yang terbaik :)